a thought

After yesterday's Power class, my joints are kinds of feeling space there. It is rather interesting feeling. In the result, I did not go to the evening Anusara class. Actually I went but missed the start by 2 minutes so I had some tea and chatted with Allan briefly and headed over to the office to finish up some work I did not get to complete as I went shopping in the afternoon (tee hee). It was meant to be. It may not be a good idea to exhaust myself yesterday so I have been looked after somehow. See, go with the flow.

This morning I was not planned to get up early to the early Power class and I did not think that I would wake up early anyway, but I did, just past 5. So phoned mom and dad in Shanghai (kind of surprised them as I usually don't call this early), and spoke to mom about taking some supplements and of course knowing mom she has a way to irritate me. I was mindful though so I caught myself before I went over the edge. Yeah, more prepared and more mindful. With them coming over in a month, I need to be very mindful about our relationship. It is a tricky one.

After the call, I got up and decided to go to early Power instead. Cathy is the teacher this morning, she is the first one in my age group I think and even could be older than me. Sound pretty ancient I know. Right away after the lesson started, I noticed the difference. Cathy is quite "formal yoga" i should say. I don't know the right word to describe. I recognize the style, because it is in me or was in me. More strict, not loose enough, still not the right words. Anyway, I noticed that younger teachers are looser and more joyful and bolder. The class is not too hard today compared to the one I had yesterday with Danielle but felt serious. Which do I prefer? If I have not been doing Yoga, I might be more open to Cathy as a teacher, but I had so much fun lately with other young teachers (in their 20's and 30's), I have to say I prefer the young teachers. Surprising, isn't it? I am open to the young crowds now instead judging them from someone who came before them stand point of view, I am appreciating them. The world is shifting. Compare to our parents` generation, we are looser and more daring, but the new generation is even looser and more fun. I like that. I like the fact that I see it now instead of stricted by my own shell. I have came out.

Notice the difference of the teaching, I decided to stay with teacher and worked on my mind during class. I tried to maintain the calm mind, focus on my move and try to transcend from my move. I learned something about training my mind. It will really help me with the relationship with my mom especially. Learn to accept and press forward with my practice. Remembering what Christine said the other day "We practice because we forget.". It helps us to remember.